would you ouija board would you ouija board would you work for me?

so i realize i epicfail at updating this thing. but i'm ready to start again. mainly i've been too angry to even think about writing. angry for no reason, angry with reckless abandon, ruthlessly angry despite myself. you'll be glad to know, however, that i have remained the same pathetic excuse for a human being though many months have passed since my last post. i have concluded that i am one of those people who is just meant to be alone because i can't bring myself to care about anything. honestly, i think about all of the qualities that a person looks for when looking for a mate and realize that i possess none of them and predict that i never will. everyone i have ever fallen for doesn't quite consider me worthy of their attention, and everyone that has ever fallen for me is not worthy of mine. so i'm a hypocrite, but at least i respect the right of others to reject me completely. i am satisfied to have friends that know me and at least try to understand.
i'm still holding out for your rapture. maybe one day you will appreciate or at least realize how much i care about you.
jaw surgery= 11 days away. what a way to spend spring break...
hey, i can get sexual too.